3 Nephi 13;32-34
For your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.
Take therefore no thought for the morrow, for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient is the day unto the evil thereof.
It has been 4 1/2 months since Dan lost his job. I am much more careful now in many things. Mostly I am careful in how I think and what I get excited over. Early on, I was very stressed. It was the end of the school year-- the getting up at 5:30 and the endless parade of school projects was grinding me down. Add the stresses of a job loss and I was a bit of a crazy person. I lost it. Many times.
Then I would get really excited about the jobs Dan was applying for. There was one in Enumclaw that made my heart pitter-patter. I dreamed of his commute and eventually moving there. A friend from Enumclaw asked Dan if we would buy his house and five acres. I wanted that so badly.
Most recently, we thought there was tremendous news. Dan interviewed at a company in Renton. They had him come in twice-- he interviewed with at least a dozen people. It seemed very promising. That was 3 weeks ago. When he pressed to see what was going on, he was told, "Don't contact us; we'll contact you."
I have learned that what I want is not what the Lord has planned for us.
I have learned a little more patience.
I have learned to trust.
It has not been easy, this journey.
While I have trust in the Lord and that His hand is very active in this process, I still become overcome with doubt. Is there a specific job or will any job do? Is Dan looking in the right places? Are we asking for the right blessings? Is every blessed person who is praying for us praying at a point of conflict? Is Dan's family trying to pray us to Utah and mine to Idaho, while the ward tries to keep us here?
Two nights ago, in my scripture study, I read 3 Nephi 13. When I came to the end of the chapter it was an answer to my question, am I praying for the right thing.
Yes. The Lord knows we have need of these things.
Today Dan was ordained a High Priest in the Melchizedek Priesthood and set apart as 2nd counselor in our ward's new bishopric.
In the blessings adjacent to the ordaining and setting apart, the Stake President and 2nd Counselor in the Stake Presidency both answered my question more solidly. Dan has served with these men for a year. They know him and our situation. While there was no promise that this particular trial would come to an end soon, I felt the promise that we would be taken care of and that it would work to our/his good. I am grateful for that.
We are in the right place. We have been prepared for this calling. It will be okay.
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